I hear of forgiveness in the pews of my church. Of course I know what forgiveness is-Someone cuts me off on I-25 freeway? Sure, I'll forgive them. Someone is 5 minutes late to a lunch meeting? No problem.
Someone physically attacks my African Father (Pastor Paul)? I have a problem. Forgiveness suddenly becomes the LAST thought in my mind. The wall of anger rises. And the battle begins.
Let me back up. You know how you can meet someone and instantly see their potential? You think, "THAT is a future leader!" That was how I felt when I met Julius 5 years ago. He is the direct neighbor to Pastor Paul and- he's just special. He and his best friend Hakim are 21 years old and are the kind of men you want leading the nation of Uganda.
They are my Dear friends as we have spent a lot of time together, prayed for each other, and encouraged one another...
Once Jessi and I got to the village, Pastor said, "Kelsey, there are so many challenges I have not told you....I could not email them to you. It was just too much for me."
He begins to tell me that a month ago Julius qualified for the Compassion International Leadership Program which would sponsor him through college. Only 3 students qualified. Pastor told Julius what he had to do in order to be accepted and continued to pressure Julius to get in all his paperwork. And sure enough, Julius was late. Too late. He failed to apply on time. By the time he remembered to finish his paperwork, the interviews had already happened and the process was in place.
Julius pleaded with the Pastor, but he had to be fair. There was nothing Pastor could do. One morning all of the kids were gone at school and the Pastor and his wife were the only ones home. All the people in the village were in their gardens- and suddenly a group of men came over to Pastor's home, including Julius. Julius' father, a former military leader from
Amin's time, gathered his men and began to
assault Pastor about Julius' situation. When Pastor Paul tried to explain, it was too late. Two men carried him out to the front yard and held down his arms and legs- one of them was Julius. Another man began beating him in the head and chest, not letting up.
My eyes began to well up with tears as I pictured this dreadful morning just a month ago. To imagine Julius, who grew up with Pastor Paul's love and care right next door, HOLDING down Pastor's ARMS! Edith, his wife, didn't know what to do. In a panic, she sounded the Africa alarm! (This entails a type of scream that is known for emergencies only). Soon villagers came to help and luckily no one else was hurt. Pastor was left beaten and bruised.
Pastor, in his soft humble voice said, "Kelsey, God knew it was going to happen because all of my children were gone and unaffected. I believe God used me as the sacrifice. And Kelsey, I forgive them. Yes, I do. I love them. They are taking me to court claiming I
assaulted them. Julius is against me. But I forgive."
I saw Julius the next day. Man, it was tough. Where I would typically run up to him with the typical greeting, I just waved from afar. I could hardly look at him. And I didn't know what to do. I had not forgiven him in my heart and I didn't know what to say.
He came up to me and said, "I know you are suspicious of me...and I need to explain." While he was talking I just looked at him thinking, "
Kels, you HAVE to forgive him. The issues of survival, poverty, and the sins of anger and selfishness is what you hate-"
When he was finished, I looked at him and said, "You know, Pastor has forgiven you.....and so do I."
We Believe that Christ was beaten.
We Believe that He was like a lamb as crowns were driven into His head.
And WE were the ones hammering the nail.
This story is the closest parallel I have to how I would feel at the cross. Paul's humility, love for his people,
sacrificial lifestyle, and grace is NOT of this world.
Why do things such as this HAVE to happen to men like Pastor Paul?
Because Christ said it would happen to His people.
Pray as Pastor continues to in this battle with Julius. Pray for repentance for Julius. Pray for me to continue in this process of forgiveness.